Music: Deichkind - Remmidemmi
this weekend will be teh best damn thing arround.
tonight:crash...one and a half hour in the fucking cold...maybe the skirt shouldn´t be too short xD
tommorow: lutero parddy up in luther^^gonna be too great to be true!!
yeah to say it short: my life is like big holidays! parties, friends, fun, no cages anywhere and the best thing of all...:
this great guy! he´s just...amazing!
thank you lil emo for being there(thank good for that bowle party^^; and for sylvester^^^) ...
love you somehow...
Music: rammstein - Du Hast
i think this was my fight. i hit you. and don´t lie to me.
but the funny thing about what you said is: it doesn´t hurt me. it didn´t even shocked me.
and now i know: you´re gone. finally.
thanks for a great time, but i was so alone.
this is a tribute to rené..
go and find your life, your peace, your "one and only" one.i wish you all the best.although i know that i will never tell you this directly.
i loved you like my own life, i had take the shot for you.
and this shows me how changing life is.at first you fly on beautiful wings...then, after a short fall, you rise again, on your own wings...
life is dangerous. you shouldn´t be a coward. everybody i know, knows whats life about.
I salute you guys...
Music: Dicso Boys - I Came For You
she did it again! she´s thinking that she is almighty. but this time it´s war! i won´t be the one to leave this in pieces. she destroyed everything with a few words. but these words hit me like nothing before. well maybe it´s just because this time i won´t apologize, crawling back to her feet, beging for a normal relationship. this time she went one step too much in my direction...
she wants war? yeah, i´m ready, she can have it!!
mood: kizz my ass biatch^^
Music: Lacrimosa - Stolzes Herz
mal wieder zeit fürn bissl heimatgerede^^ ich hab mir mal so grad so meine alten blogs reingezogen...und jetzt hab ich sowas wie ne "Erleuchtung"^^...
I´ve made it! i´m my only, my own god. and now be careful with me...feeling like mourdering...
und jetzt sag ich einfach mal getrost:
Ihr könnt mich alle mal^^ ich habs selbst gemacht, back up,fass mich an und du warst geschichte!!
fühl mich grad wieder gut^^
Music. evanescence - your star
don´t know whats wrong. expectations. can´t accept them. but have to. i see the problem. feeling like...they treat me a lil´ bit unfair. i think i have to make decisions. there are a lot. some are hard, others are clear. but what´s the right way to make it right? this path is closed to me.
well, confusing times...
music: fanta 4 - krieger
i´m running up a hill.i know at the top, there´s the light. the wisdom, the final destination. the end of all fears, there are all my hope.there are my dreams.
but the top seems to run too. i get faster. the end seemd to fade.
i´m searching. for the end. the core of these obligatory, lukewarm, slow, desinterested time.
behind my back, pushing me forwards, is something. or someone. there´s a breath.
this well known something is behind me. always. can´t shake it off. i want to escape, want to be at the top of this hil, because i know, the something, or the someone can´t reach me there.
but the end seems to fade. i´m running faster. it´s still behind me.
behind me, the breath.
it´s talking. you have to awake, you are a sleeper. you have been waiting so long. what´s your dream, why are you here? you have to wake up, your dream won´t end. life is a river, it has to flow. wake up, i will show you a free area, a place i found in your head. and i want to show it to you...
it´s touching me. i´m turning around and i know, we´re a unity. it happens. i´m seeing what the other me sees.
faces. i know them. i know their stories. i know them. each of them is related to me. they are running with me, fighting for the same thing. giving me a feeling like a shield. i´ve missed that feeling.
i wake up.
and my dream goes on..
music: him - pretending
yeah dude^^it´s your perfect life?
i don´t believe one word. it sound s like: " oh look, i feel so great since you left. i don´t need you!"
and yes, keep on pretending, even if i know the truth. i know you. keep on pretending, when it ends your craving... you try to lie at me, but you forgot something...^^
i wish that your lies come true, it would be the perfect life, just for you...
i am not the one to blame, you solitary man...
damn i love H.I.M...